Sorry for the lack of posts lately but I haven’t had much to say. During the time where I’m waiting to either get my period or find out if I’m pregnant, it’s kind of hard to think about much else and I don’t want to bore you folks with all that. But, here we are.
The Clomid did it’s job and according to two ultrasounds I developed two follicles - that’s like a pouch that develops around an egg, which then bursts at ovulation and releases the egg into the fallopian tube - in my right ovary and ovulated one of them (the other one will supposedly dissolve on its own). My doctor was really excited by the look of my uterine lining - woo hoo? - and told me that everything looked good. That was ten days ago.
That said, I’m pretty sure I’m going to get my period this month. I took a pregnancy test this morning and it was negative. True, I tested a couple days earlier than I should have (I couldn’t wait), but I’m just pretty sure this cycle didn’t work. I’ve got all my pre-period symptoms, crampy, backache, sore boobs, tired but have crazy insomnia. The only difference is that my boobs reeeeeeeeeeeally hurt and I’ve got a wicked headache today. I didn’t know what to expect from the Clomid in terms of syptoms, but it kind of makes sense that it would just be my normal stuff, just amplified.
The waiting sucks monkey balls. Either I am pregnant or I’m not, and if I’m not, then I just want my period to come and get it over with. Plus, I’m so physically uncomfortable at this point that I’d rather it come so I can feel better.
I’m bummed, but am more optimistic than ever that we are getting closer. I know at least we are on the right track. I really have felt this month like my body is doing something and I think that must be from the increase in hormones caused by the Clomid. I truly must not have been producing enough on my own. Plus, we got time. I’m not in any huge hurry. I love my life with my husband, being able to sit in the backyard and drink a bottle of wine, go out to dinner on a whim, travel across the world. And if I get to do that for a little while longer, awesome. And if that’s all that’s in the cards for us, that ain’t so bad either.
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