Still here. Still - technically - pregnant. I stopped taking my progesterone supplements last Friday, but so far, everything is staying put. I’ve been doing a lot of reading and it looks to me like I have a blighted ovum, or an anembryonic pregnancy. It’s when the fertilized egg implants and then the development of the embryo goes awry, so it stops and is reabsorbed into the body, but the gestational sac can keep on growing and producing hormones, hence my climbing HCG levels. It’s very common, but, as I’m becoming increasingly aware, an enormous pain in the ass.
Because, you see, my body still thinks I’m pregnant. If I don’t opt for a D&C, which my doctor told me last week is an option, I can be waiting for weeks for my body to figure out that there’s something amiss. I just read that most miscarriages due to an anembryonic pregnancy occur between weeks 7-12. I would be 7 weeks today. Which makes me cry when I think about it. And makes me cry even more when I think that I could be waiting to miscarry for another five weeks.
So far I’m having no signs of miscarriage. A cramp here and there, but nothing too painful. My boobs still hurt as much as they did a week ago.
I don’t know how much longer I can wait. I reeeeeeeeeeally don’t want to have a D&C. This pregnancy started with me and I want it to end with me. But the waiting is tearing me up. I feel like I can’t move on until this is over.
Hello,
I found your blog by googling. I went to my ob’gyn today and found out that my gestational sac was very small about 11mm (I think) when it should be 30. They said it was l ike 5 weeks 5 days and I am supposed to be 7 weeks 6 days. They tried to be positive about it but I am just holdin gmy breath trying to be patient. I am not sure what will happen.
I lost a pregnancy at 16 weeks (although the Dr. said it had stopped growing at 12 weeks) a year ago yesterday.
I am not really angry as there is nothing to be angry about, it is just sad like you said.
I am soo sorry that you are feeling sad. I just wanted you to know that I think it is good to have faith. I myself have faith in The Creator so I believe everything happens for a reason. I just have to deal with it gracefully.
By the words that you chose, I would say that you are dealing with it gracefully.
I pray that you will find a lot of strength and don’t let your sadness overtake you.
a fellow internet sister.