Just a quick note to say that after my last post, which, admittedly was pretty intense, I’ve been feeling a lot better. I made an appointment with my therapist for Saturday, I exercised, and haven’t thought once all day that I have either MS or early menopause. Hey, it’s a start, right?
I think that the stress from losing Maggie and traveling and jet lag and everything just overloaded my system. Pushed me over the edge and now I’m clawing my way back. I hate getting all angsty like this, but the good news is that I recognize when something isn’t working for me. I can ask for help when I need it and I can express my feelings to the people who love me (and apparently, to the rest of you who just stopped by for pictures of Patrick Dempsey or information on rabbit birthing procedures - for the last time I CAN’T HELP YOU!!!).
Plus, after writing it all out, I felt better almost immediately. It’s hard to explain, but being able to get all this stuff out of my head and onto virtual paper somehow takes the urgency out of it. I think it’s because for days I stew on it, I get all wrapped up in it and can’t see a way out. But then I write it, it’s out there, anyone can read it, and I can let it go. The bad thoughts are sort of robbed of their power over me when I release them like this.
You have a lot going on, take it easy on yourself. I know that’s easier said than done, but I hope you’re relaxing a bit and feeling a little better.