Had my follow up hCG test this morning. It did go up, from high 400s to high 1500s, but that’s not high enough. I ran in for an ultrasound to make sure that it’s not an ectopic pregnancy, and it’s not. There is a gestational sac in my uterus, but it is tiny, much too small at five and half weeks to be viable.
So it’s basically the same situation as last time. Regular (meaning intrauterine) pregnancy that is just growing too slowly to work out. At least it’s not an ectopic, that is good news. There was a small part of me that was hoping it was, just so we could have it resolved quickly. Instead, they told me to “come back in a week” for another ultrasound but I don’t see the point. Both the doctor and I saw that tiny sac, we both know the hCG is too low. So…what are we waiting for, exactly?
I can give it a week to see if my body rejects the pregnancy naturally, which is what I would prefer, of course. But if, next Monday, that sac is still firmly in place, I guess I will have to decide between using the Misoprostol again or having a D&C. I don’t know right now which I would pick. The Misoprostol is less creepy and it seemed to work pretty well last time, but it seems to me that a D&C would be more of a guarantee of quick resolution. But it also means general anesthesia and sharp things in my uterus, which is just icky.
I just really really really want this to be over as quickly as possible. Last time was such torture - weeks and weeks of waiting and watching and hoping and being disappointed and needles needles needles.
*Sigh*. I guess I just have to take it as it comes, I don’t really have a choice.
I’m sorry.
Do your doctors think that since your hCG levels are up that is a good sign? I hope that this can resolve itself naturally for you.
Sari - It’s not that fact that the levels are going up, it’s the rate at which they rise that is important. In order for it to be a healthy, viable pregnancy, doctors want to see the hCG numbers double every 48 hours. My numbers are going up too slowly for the pregnancy to be a good one. At this point, I actually want the hCG to drop, which would cause my body to trigger a miscarriage naturally.
thinking of you … hugs
You know, I read this post before your last one and sort of figured that out.
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I know when you finally have your baby, you’re going to be such a great mom because you’ll cherish your baby so much.
omg, honey. i am so sorry i have been out of touch. with all going on here i haven’t been reading my blogs and today i come here and read all that is happening with you. i am so sorry. i am here if you need to talk. xoxo