…weeks that is.
I’m pregnant 
4 weeks today. It is still very early, but I have had two very promising blood tests, so I am choosing to be positive and excited. I’m taking this pregnancy one day at a time, with my mantra “Whatever will be will be, in this moment I am pregnant”. I have my first ultrasound next Friday to see how things are progressing.
I have definitely ridden the roller coaster of emotions the past few days. From excited and happy to terrified and desperate. But so far we have only had good indicators for this pregnancy, so I will choose to be positive until there is something to not be positive about.
With my first pregnancy I didn’t let myself feel excited or happy, I was just terrified. And we knew within 24 hours that the second pregnancy wasn’t viable. So this is a brand new chance for me to enjoy being pregnant. If I do end up miscarrying again, at least I can say that this time I let myself be happy, let myself be excited. Would it really hurt any less if I don’t let myself feel these things? No. So why deprive myself of the joy?
I would really appreciate your positive thoughts, good wishes and prayers (seriously - not a person of faith myself, but right now I’ll take God, Jesus, Allah, Buddha, Lord Xenu, you name it…I’m not picky). I want this baby to become a part of our family so very much.
Oh wow! Yay! Good thoughts headed your direction.
oh my gosh!! i am sooooo excited and happy for you!! i just jumped up and did a little dance
congratulations honey and i am so glad you are feeling the joy and i will be sending you all the positive thoughts and good wishes i have ’cause i have a lot to go around these days 
yay yay yay!! smooches!!
such great news!!! I’m sending you all the happy and healthy vibes I can muster!
Congratulations! Oh, the prayers and good vibes I am sending you right now…. If only numbers could count that high, you would be amazed. Much much much love to you!